第一次

第一次，我有淚無處訴
第一次，我想砍掉自己很多的手
第一次，我想大睡什麼都不想
第一次，我堅持不解釋
第一次，我想逃避一些人
第一次，我害怕
但，卻不是因為愧疚；而是，我知道某人也難做人
我不想起任何爭執
有事就來找我吧
不想牽扯他了
我也知道‘中間人’的辛苦
不會再發生這種事了放心
我不會再做蠢事了
這是第一次，也是最後一次
對不起

No mood now

when update my birthday post soon (:

A wonderful Friday with the gang ~

Planed to go Jogoya but cancel at the end due to Jogoya is FULLY BOOK.
We went to Sushi Zamai to have our lunch.
After that shopping from Fahrenheit - Sg.Wang - Time Square.
Tried alot of clothes & shoes but didn't buy at all due to LACK of cash.
They all bought alot of things !
Although I didn't buy but Im happy also because you all are enjoying.
Get a pair of shoes from them as my birthday present.
Thank you & appreciate ♥
A tired day but very happy !
Next time let's hang out again ! ♥

不否認

某人今天說：‘ 你知不知道你在這幾個月裡變了很多？’
我說：‘ 是啊，我從來不否認，但我覺得我變得想法樂觀了，我也快樂了。’

在這幾個月，我變了
我以前是個消極，現實，果斷的人
但現在，我會猶豫，想法也比較不消極了，現實？跟以前比，好太多了
我這樣的變，是好還是不好？
我也不懂，只能說，我快樂了
即使每天吵架，鬥嘴，我還是開心
我還亂發脾氣，耍任性
以前的理智統統不見了

這兩天，我的理智更掉到谷底
我答應過不哭的
但我昨晚還是哭了
源源不絕的眼淚

但我還會哭，證明我在乎
如果有一天，我眼淚流乾了
那就代表我都不在乎了

06.03.2011

Im super lazy, i admit it.
Week 3 gone, FF midterm & TI test 2 finished.
Week 4 coming, FF & TI assignment summit date.

Went to my dad's friend weeding dinner at Federal Hotel, Mandarin Palace yesterday.
Federal Hotel located at Bukit Bintang & we went out at 7pm.
Good, super traffic jam there & we reached there at 8.20pm.
We're not too late because still have many people still stuck in the traffic jam.
Such a high class place, I think.
The bridegroom is my dad's friend which from Hong Kong.
The bride is from Malaysia.
I dont know them actually, according from what my mum told mii is the last time she met him was im still baby. ==
Started dinner at 9.00pm & end at about 11.00pm.

=)

喝酒的伴 一起看電影的伴
早午晚餐的那個伴
朋友不能留得太晚 明天要上班
唱K的伴 一起去旅行的伴
聽懂我的笑話的伴
我的生活 只差那個人就美滿


快樂少一人分享 快樂就只剩一半
喝一碗湯
心怎麼都不夠暖
這張被單 這張睡床
再舒服都覺得太寬
沒人分享 幸福就只剩一半
就算把日子都填滿
節日卻提醒我孤單


沒有想法 有想法又能怎樣
只能寫部落格整晚
幾個留言安慰不了 心裡的遺憾
沒有負擔 原來也是種負擔
自由多得讓人心慌
你羨慕我 那要不要跟我交換


快樂少一人分享 快樂就只剩一半
喝一碗湯 心怎麼都不夠暖
這張被單 這張睡床
再舒服都覺得太寬
沒人分享 幸福就只剩一半
努力把日子都填滿
別來提醒 我的孤單


快樂少一人分享 快樂就只剩一半
喝一碗湯 心怎麼都不夠暖
這張被單 這張睡床
再舒服都覺得太寬
沒人分享 幸福就只剩一半
就算把日子都填滿
沒人知道 我多孤單

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空著手　猶如你來的時候
緊皺的額頭　終於再沒有苦痛
走得太累了　眼皮難免會沉重
你沒錯　是應該回家坐坐　

鳴笛聲　悄悄地刺進耳朵
這一次揮手　恐怕再沒機會問候
最後一遍了　換你躲進我雙肘
像靠在　曾搖動我的天空

別說話　淚水你別帶走
鏡子裡的我　已留下你　輪廓上的笑容
別回眸　末班車要開了
你不過先走　深愛是讓不捨離開的人　好好走

別牽掛　約好我們再見
散步的午後　要像從前　再挽著手敘舊
別逗留　末班車要開了
路到了盡頭　回頭是爲永留心口的人　好好走

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不懂為什麼
我哭了 因為這兩首歌
我最近愛死這兩首歌
歌詞字字刻進心裡
為什麼？
我也不知道
我不是emo 也不是感觸
只是當聽到歌看到歌詞
眼淚就流了

93 days ♥

I have no idea what should I blog for.
Finish the second week in this semester.
Next week have 2 test. Im dead !
Result had released yesterday, don't ask mii about my result, it's all in my expect.

Need alot of money this semester.
-Tamadun text book - thanks King ♥ found mii a 2nd hand book. (:
-Financial calculator + Printing fees.
-Parking sticker.
-Reference books.
I really need a job to cover all these. ):
Many plan coming soon.
- Saving money for someone's birthday present. ( Where's my present? ) =P
- I wanna have a trip !

Sometime I really feel speechless with humans.
They can talk so loud in everything but do nothing at the end.
My plan might be fail because of humans.
Feel disappointed.
This call human, I should accept this and I am accepting.

My temper was not so good recently.
Easy to get angry and scold you without any reason.
I apologize, forgive mii kay?
Thank you for everything. ♥

我不想那樣

答應過某人，能的話盡量不發不開心的文
但我的心就是那麼的不舒服


開學了，每個人都很開心的去college
但其實我每天都帶著一萬個不願意去的
某人說是因為我的holiday mood還沒OFF掉才會那樣
但其實是不是，我自己也不知道


雖然嘴上都說我不介意
但其實我怕，我怕考試，功課，CW & Presentation
這些我都怕，但怕的原因....誰知道 @@


容易胡思亂想，不懂是我的特質還是雙魚座特質
我開始害怕某人會覺得我煩


我只是沒有安全感
我知道我太依賴你了
有時在想，如果有天你突然離開我了，我要怎樣活？
我知道我又胡思亂想了
但只是因為我太害怕了
我想依賴，但不敢太依賴
我怕依賴慣了


害怕相信，因為害怕被騙
自我保護意識太強了
勇敢了太久，開始害怕勇敢

元宵節快樂

Last day of Chinese New Year, Chinese valentine's day.
CNY passed, no more angpau, no more CNY snacks.
Time to study & diet !
I gained weight & my face more chubby dy. Kill mii pls. =(

Started my sem 3 on Monday & Monday was Valentine's Day.
Dinner with mama's side family, celebrate uncle & auntie's birthday.

Semester 3 is a hard sem for mii I think.
No more helping by others, only I can help myself. =(
Classes are pack !! I hate my time table 99 !!
Monday till 7.30pm, Tuesday till 5.00pm, Wed till 4pm & Thurs till 3.30pm.
I feel faint when I got this time table. KNS !!
2 of 3 subjects are finally related with my course.
I scare I cant handle it, bless mii.
Midterm test at week 3, assignment submission in week 4.
FAINT !!

Im afraid.
Afraid in? EVERYTHING !
I wanna be brave in everything.

Jee, be brave also kay?
You are brave girl I ever seen.
Take care yourself, take care your family. ♥
Love & miss you alwayss. ♥♥

Chinese New Year ~

初二 ~

As usual, popo's house again.
My uncle's friend came to my popo house for drinking.
Suddenly one uncle said :' my son wish to know her.' ( stare on my cousin - vien )
LMAO !! All of us keep laughing on her. :D


Tang yuan making suggested by Ger.
I just look because Im lazy. :P


Back home after dinner. (:

初三 ~

Wake up so early.
After had breakfast.
Go to my papa's side relative's house.
Chit chat a while there.
One of my cousin sis said I wear so casual compare last year.
Another cousin sis said I fat dy compared last time she saw mii. :(


After that went to another cousin's house.
I love this day because I can meet those cousins that only can meet once a year.
I dislike this day because the house that I wanna go, I feel stress & loath.
Maybe is ‘Childhood shadows' so I dislike him.
Because i am there that day while he scolding my family.
Although i am small that time, but I still remember.
The mark still there, at the door.
But I will still respect you, because you're my relative & elder then mii.


Back at about 9pm.
Hope to meet those cousins again.
I love them & miss them.
I felt regretted I didn't take photo with them.
I will do that next time ! (:

初四  ~
Nothing special, Just sleep whole day. =.=

初五 ~

I check my facebook after I woke.
Time table of semester 3 had release.
Not so nice but not too bad also lar.
4 days classes only. (:


When movie with Jeanie, Chia Wen & Eric at Pavy. 
Watched Mr & Mrs Incredible .
A funny movie. :D

College start next week. :(

Happy CNY ~~

Happy Chinese New Year

to all my friends & relatives !!

大年初一，難得的早起，10.30am =.=
換新衣，去吃早餐


過後當然是回外婆家啦
我家比較特別，我們新年都回外婆家
可能今年有點早去，靜到....
幸好下午很多親戚，但其實我不會稱呼他們 =.=


我也見到了我的ah tai, hmm,我媽媽的奶奶，曾祖母？
她今年101歲了！！
跟上一次我見到她，她好像有蒼老了
沒有那麼精神了
要祝她健健康康！！ :)


跟表弟妹們玩牌，小小的，其實也很開心
我阿姨突然加入，舅舅，我媽也加入
互罵別人笨蛋，不會算牌，笑死我了
新年就是要這樣的歡笑，才像新年


晚上，去了lina家拜年
聊天咯
我們果然都是雙魚座小孩
不動是長大了還是老了
我開始討厭吵鬧，喜歡安靜
有點像退休老人的感覺 =.=


這就是我的初一